23 Jun

Procastinating again

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I am still trying to get a few things done again. However, with how much I love to procrastinate, I don’t know. I guess I will be pushing the web designing off again till I get my other plans done first. Hmm. I really need to figure out what to do, though. My domain needs a new layout.

23 Jun

Always trying for a reason

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I have about two drafts saved here at this journal always talking about my relationship. I always seemed to have some reason to just complain how everything is going. However, each time I think about the relationship, something always changes my mind and makes me realize why I love him so much.

Tonight was no exception. These past few days, especially yesterday, haven’t been the best for us. I broke down into tears afraid that he was going break up with. It was what he said that made me realize that I wasn’t going to lose him. It might sound crazy to some people, but for us, it seems different. We would go crazy if we would to ever separate. I don’t know if I would be happy again if I ever had to say goodbye to him. He is my world at the moment.

At first when I started dating him, I was always curious why I was so attracted to him. Was it because he had a motorcycle or drove a fancy car? At first, I thought I was just trying to raise my status. However, that has changed. I love him for his personality, his kindness when he worries about me or even cares so deeply. There are so many reasons why I love him. We might not have many things in common, but it doesn’t matter. We do so many things with each other that interests don’t matter.

I want to talk about something different such as how my summer has been going or what I am wanting to change. However, at the moment, I just want to talk about him. I said what I wanted to say. He makes me happy. I can picture him in my life. I don’t want to lose him. I love him quite a bit more than anyone besides my family. He means the world to me.

My next entry will be an update, but for now, that is where I am going to leave it. I am happy, content, and completely at peace. For now, everything is going great for me.

30 May

Wanting and then not wanting

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Weekends, when I want you, I can never seem to have you. However, when there are times that I just want the weekend to be over with, it feels like they take forever. Right now, though, I love my work schedule, but I hate my boyfriend being away for two days. Oh, how I suffer with time being my enemy.

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